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deviation in storage by ~Falcon-Darkblood
I'm feeling emptied, like a wastebasket unused, a font dried. I can't remember the exact point, but it's thus since September 2004. I am dissatisfied with every word I write, discouraged even to try, no matter how fitting the mood. I want to speak about my motives to start writing in the first place.

Imaging stories has always been my favourite outlet for all the piled-up feelings I could not let out. I did not have any other options in art: it's hard for me to do a straight line with the help of a ruler, and learning to play an instrument is not possible, remembering the two years of pain when I had to play a flute. My fingers don't seem to work individually (a reason I'm only writing with two of them... but still as fast as most people do with ten).
Anyway, I'm not sure when I first dared to put down what had sharpened in my mind, but I guess it was for some browser only online game I played. (This one still in German). As I tried to improve my English by reading original literature at that time, writing English on my own seemed like a logical consequence. I got some ideas which seemed good on first sight, but with every day that passed, I saw more clearly how stereotyped and stolen they were.

What really prevents my writing at the moment are two things.
First, the views show what I assumed; very few people are actually reading this (rightly, I guess). For me, it's of no difference whether I put it down or keep it in my head. On the contrary, most things are better while they are not forced into words but remain as free as thoughts are. So, why waste time with writing?
Second, I feel that school, society and family finally managed to kill my sentimental nature. I find myself suppressing what I feel more and more, the stories slowly fading from my memory. This is, of course, how today's life is supposed to work.
Eventually, I started to become the machine they need.

I guess I will post the few words that were not posted yet, and then, I may forget about this business soon. What's the good of it now?

Oh, did you notice that almost every sentence I wrote contains at least one "I" or something similarly? Does that mean I'm egocentric? I guess not, since I have to force myself to write this word with a capital letter?

(Wow, it even works for the afterword...)

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  • Current Residence: Oberhausen
  • Favourite movie: The Matrix
  • Favourite band or musician: Linkin Park, Evanescence, Korn, SoaD... stuff
  • Favourite poet or writer: Stephen King
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:iconboobookittiefuck:
Hey, I see that you live in Oberhausen! I was wondering, do you think you could help me with a project I’m doing? I’ll explain...
I’m from Sunderland University in the UK doing a Photography degree. I’ve decided to do one of my projects on Twin Towns, where towns and cities throughout Europe are twinned with each other. At the mo I’ve got someone in Middlesbrough, UK, taking photos for me and I was hoping to get someone in Oberhausen to do the same, because Middlesbrough and Oberhausen are twinned with each other. Would you be willing to give me a hand? I’ll give you more details if you wanna help me.
Send me an email to sally.hoban@sunderland.ac.uk or send me a message back on devART.
Thanks!!
Sally
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:icontybaltia:
hey cool oberhausen! ich komm aus mülheim! ;-) und dann mags du noch south park!

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`Bringa Aug 31, 2004  Hobbyist Writer
Hallo Sebastian,

meine Freundin ist jetzt wieder in Polen, ich bin zwar noch nicht wieder richtig online, aber hab doch theoretisch wieder ein wenig Zeit zu lesen. Theoretisch, weil ich im Moment ne ueble Mandelentzuendung hab. Ich schlaf die meiste Zeit. Ich hab die Geschichte nicht vergessen, werd sie in den naechsten Tagen lesen.

Daniel

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:iconeric-cartman:
Hi Daniel,

klar, lass dir Zeit. Kurier dich aus, die Geschichte kann ruhig was warten.

Sebastian

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:iconneri-chan:
Hi! Hab dich über meine neighbours seite gefunden:D Ich wohne in Kirchhellen. Schön, mal Deutsche aus meiner Umgebung bei DA zu sehen^.^(und dann auch noch jemanden der eric cartman mag!:w00t: )
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:iconeric-cartman:
jaja, über die neighbour-seite kann man schöne entdeckungen machen... hätte auch nicht gedacht dass es mehr als 5 leute aus NRW bei dA gibt ;)

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:icondarkkavenger:
welcome around !
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:iconeric-cartman:
Well, that's understandable, it was usually thought to be divided in five posts but I wanted to make a rather big one there. Oh, did I say sorry for my double comment? Don't know what happened there to my browser.... yesterday, it showed that my first comment after being submitted didn't have a text with it. Thanks very much for the welcome :D

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:iconopal-i:
WOW!!! You are one very talented writer ^_^ I love your "Colors: chapter one".... i only read a bit, LoL because i have school work that's due tomorrow, but I'll be sure to pop back and finish it ^_^

Oh and thank you so much for you kind comment ^_^ :hug:

And your kinda a newbie so WELCOMe TO devART ^_^ :hug:
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:icondocjay:
fein fein willkommen

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